The best secret of them all.
Keeping a secret of this magnitude has definitely not been easy. It feels so incredible to finally share our very big news with the world: We will be welcoming a new addition to our little family in July 2020. WE ARE HAVING A BABY!
Some days it still feels unreal, but my growing bump reminds me every day that it IS more than real. It’s been a complete whirlwind since we found out in fall last year that I was pregnant, but it’s been the most magical time ever since and we are still feeling like we are floating above the ground. Now that I am already 5 months along, it’s all starting to sink in and we couldn’t be more excited to share the big news.
All of a sudden you realize, there is no turning back from here on.
We found out on Halloween, which was a very big surprise. Although we were wishing for a baby, we both didn’t think it would happen so fast. I think I was mentally preparing not to be too frustrated if I didn’t get pregnant right away, so I was telling myself it would take a while anyway. But I was proven completely wrong. It was actually right after we were coming home from New York that we found out I was pregnant. I did not feel that anything was off first. I had mild stomach cramps and was simply expecting my period to start soon. The only thing I had noticed was that I was extra tired. However, since we were on our feet so much in NYC, I thought I was just a little exhausted from walking around. When my period was two days late, I secretly took a pregnancy test without telling Patrick. When I saw the result on the test, I wasn’t entirely sure what I was seeing because the second line on the test was very weak. I ran into the living room and held the pregnancy test in front of my husband’s face, who first did not quite know what exactly I was presenting him. We decided to take another pregnancy test to make sure what we were supposing was true. A few minutes later we held that little stick in our hands that confirmed everything we hoped for – it read “pregnant”.
We were overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions – we were happy, excited, grateful, but also a little scared and everything else in between. Even though we had talked about this moment for a long time, it just felt so surreal. What we’ve both been wishing for turned into reality all of sudden. But, once we processed the huge news, everything started to settle in and all we felt was pure joy. It’s one of those significant moments in life when you realize there’s no turning back from here on.
We know our lives will forever change, for the better.
I’m now just passing my 18th week and baby is looking very healthy and strong. During the last ultrasound we could already hear baby’s heartbeat and even see it sucking its thumb. This experience was beyond anything I have ever felt before – my heart constantly feels as if it’s about to burst out of my chest due to too much joy and love. It’s insane how much you can love a tiny being that you haven’t even met yet.
I am very much looking forward to finally share updates and photos about the new and super exciting Baby chapter in our life. It’s going to be quite the adventure, that’s for sure. Deep inside I know my whole world is about to change. And frankly, I can’t wait to see what this new world will look like.